Sometimes I over share, and tonight as a miracle happened in our home, I initially blamed myself for my open mouth problem. Where to begin...?
Humble Thank You!
In my over-sharing even now, I don't want to give the impression that we are without met needs. There are just times when we over-spend and have several lines of credit that have payments that eat up a bigger portion of our budget than is comfortable. Rather than neglect our obligations, we cut out luxuries. We don't eat out. We reuse leftover food and make creative second meals. We buy flour, sugar, eggs and oil to make homemade junk food. We don't go bowling or on joy rides in the car. We drive the car rather than the newer and nicer pickup for fuel economy... Basic budget cuts. We are not going to even be without heat or food, we just simplify our lives. Actually, it's good for us.
Now in the past few weeks I tried to sell a few things to make a little extra cash, but it worked out that it was a very little amount of $5. I knew in my heart that I was supposed to give some money for something that I could have asked someone else to cover easily. Today was the day and I showed my husband ... It wasn't very much, and he said, "You're the one who knows how much money we have." I replied that I really wasn't sure what we have, but it's the right thing to do.
I shared with a group of friends a little about Kingdom finance tonight and that He takes care of things in a way we don't understand. In that I shared that we don't have extra money to seed into a project right now and that we ate deer stew and it told my kids it was part of our lessons for school about early colonies. This is true, but I had other food to eat too in the freezer and shelves. I'm just being conscious of wasting as little as possible right now.
Our meeting is over, my husband gave the money and got home first to find an envelope on our door with money in it... Anonymous. He called me to tell me and immediately I felt guilty. I told him that I should not have said what I said. We have everything we need. Then he reminded me that I gave and said, "it's the right thing to do." What I gave wasn't much at all and what I received was more. Yes, I'm overwhelmed by the goodness of God right now. Am I so proud as to believe that my rambling speech moved someone more than God could? Anonymous also means it could have been from someone who had no idea that I said those words, no idea I was talking about Kingdom finance tonight among other things.
Is it important to know who and why? No! I just need to trust that for whatever reason, God showed me a tangible sign that what I spoke was Truth. I am an ambassador of Christ, and the finances for an ambassador come from the Kingdom that sent him or her. It doesn't have to make sense. I am thankful to my God and to whoever was so stirred as to obey Him. This proves to me and hopefully others that He cares about the tiniest details of our lives. He also takes notice of our tiny acts of obedience. While I give God the credit for this testimony, I did ask Him to bless the giver with 10 times as much as they gave. If the giver is reading this and receives that blessing, they will have a great testimony as well!